Have you ever just felt like leaving? Have you ever felt like just quitting your
job, selling your belongings and just going somewhere/anywhere? I think about
this sometimes and dream of what it would be like if I actually went through
The places I would go the people I would meet the experiences I would have.
Going on an adventure like this would certainly be an amazing experience and
could change my life forever.
Usually at some point during this day dream I think of all the responsibilities
I have, shake the idea out of my head and continue with life as it is but there
is always this part of me that thinks, what if?
What if I did leave?
What if I am denying myself the greatest opportunity of my life by not leaving?
What if all the worries and doubts I have about this aren’t as bad as I imagine?
What if they are?
What if I can’t find a job when I get back from this imaginary pilgrimage?
What if I destroy relationships with my family, friends, and fiancé by leaving
for a little while?
What if I never stopped it ask these what ifs and just did it?
I will probably never know the answers to these questions because I know deep
down inside that I don’t have it in me to just up and go. I am too much of a
worrier at heart and I have to have my ducks in a row before I embark on
anything remotely risky.
I think the biggest reason I sometimes feel like I want to get up and go is because
I have this obsession with making the most of my life and experiencing every
little thing I can before my time is up and even though I am only 25 I seem to
have this notion that everything needs to be done right now! Or it will never
happen. But it will; in time. I just need to be patient.
I suppose I will just have to find things that are less extreme (and cost efficient)
to bring excitement into my life for now. I always have my summer bucket list
to complete and there is nothing stopping me from doing a 3-4 day road trip and
seeing where that takes me. In fact I think I am going to add that to my summer
bucket list right now.
Have any of you thought of up and leaving before? Have any of you actually done
it? Let me know in the comments!