I was scrolling through the good ole WordPress reader when and stumbled upon this post which eventually lead me to this post and they got me thinking about my own life, specifically my quarter life crisis.
I constantly go on about how much I hate my job and how badly I want to get out of here and find a better one, but deep down inside I think I hate it so much because this isn’t where I saw myself 5 years ago when I graduated.
I was going to be in advertising. I was going to sell ad space for some fancy magazine or television station. I was going to work in Downtown Toronto and live in a fancy condo, wear fancy clothes, and have fancy friends.
Well none of that happened. I graduated in 2008 right when the recession started to get really bad and couldn’t have gotten a job in advertising if I paid them to hire me. So after a year of looking I decided to get a full time job anywhere I could so that I could make some sort of income. That lead me to the company I work for today.
Sure the job I have now doesn’t pay as much as I would like and it doesn’t offer benefits but it could be worse. It is in a growing industry, there is plenty of opportunity for advancement (I have already been promoted once) and at this point in time I make my own schedule, which allows me to have an awesome social life.
So life hasn’t turned out like I thought it would; big deal. The way I see it I could be one of those people who are working 18 hour days; checking emails, taking calls, working on projects even when they are at home. Sure because of the effort they might make $200,000+ a year but at what point do they get to sit back and enjoy that money, when they retire?
Up to this point I thought I was settling for less by working at a job I felt like I was too good for when really I am not settling, I am re-adjusting. As I have stated many, many times before I am working on starting my photography business and my current job is giving me the money and the flexibility I need to get that business started. If I had the fancy job I would have never had time to do something like this, I may not have even had the chance to explore my love for photography as much as I have in the past 5 years.
I still have a way to go before I am out of this quarter life crisis but it is safe to say I have entered phase 3 – rebuilding. This is the phase where I no longer get to wallow in what was supposed to be and all the things that should have been. It is time to start looking into the future and working on what will be.